Stepping into Adulthood...
21... Adulthood. Wanted to spend this birthday with a bang. Haha.. No, no, no... Nothing too grand. Perhaps just a small party or a gathering, a small celebration will do. I'm disappointed with lots of stuffs but no point complaining. Should be counting my blessings. Well, at least I got LY n JH for dinner, got a small surprise, managed to get 2 days leave...

Now that I've stepped into the adult world, I'm not ready yet... Love being a child. Hope that I never have to grow up. Being a adult = unhappy? Rather true. More issues, more responsibilities, more challenges, more expectations etc. I know what is expected of me, perhaps that's why I'm scared? Money, I cant survive without it, or should I say we? I'm going to be the sole breadwinner in the family. I'm terrified by just thinking of that.. How can I manage? I'm such a compulsive shopper, a squanderer. I hate listening to what mum kept drilling into me. Money, money money... I'm getting crazy over money sooner or later... Should learnt to manage my money better. At least now that I've seen clearly some so-called friends, guess I'll not have to experience that "I-only-got-$9-in-my-bank-account" syndrome. I swear that I wont be so stupid as to lent money to those so-called friends...

I'm in no mood for love affairs. Love being single, though I do envy those attached... But I really hate being tied down, scare of being hurt. Please dont say you are concern about me when I feel that I'm being tracked. Please dont keep calling me, my bills are high enough... I glad that at least I'm "marketable" but I simply dont understand what's good about me? I'm ugly and plumb and I got serious mood swings and depression... But what if, I'm wrong about him? After all, he never say... Haiz. I hate all these things... Just stop bothering me....

Ok, I'm here to announce that I've finally bought my mp3!!! Love it a lot!!! But my wallet is kind of bleeding now. Spent 500+ bucks. Never mind, it will last me for at least a year plus and I'll treat it as my own birthday present. Ok, it's too expensive, at least for me... Ok, ok, I'm contradicting myself... After having bought that, I went around AMK central. Oh my, I saw this pendant. Love it so much!!! Light purplish-blue stone/crystal with silver "frame"... It was the one and only one available. Buy!! My heart was screaming that, but my wallet was crying... My brain was scolding me, telling me how stupid I am if I bought that... But... But... According to the stall-owner, it was the last piece and she only bought in 3 pieces to sell. Was staring at the pendant and the angel and devil started fighting again... Oh well, initally the devil won, went to the ATM to withdraw cash as they do not accept nets. Oh well, while waiting for my turn, the angel won... I turned back. There's no reason to spend so much just for a pendant. After all, no matter how much i love it, i only have one neck and no point to buy right? RIGHT!! I'll soon forget about this... Ok ... That's it...Time for bed...